Coffee

I like my coffe like myself

Strong

And black

And hot

I take it like I take myself 

Seriously 

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Things I Think of When I Can’t Sleep

Little sandwiches shaped like things

Childhood memories

Of mispronounced words

Bloggers i used to know

The “art” in being a 21st Century Poet

Duck face poems about crises that aren’t  crises

But are the only crises this generation knows

How my “old school” poetics are “old school”

Bol

Brb

I h8t the cliché

How at 21 I’m suddenly Rizzo from Grease hoping to get a call but simultaneously not giving a rats….

Pajamas…

But what’s a girl in a heteronormal world gunna do?

How my words are less a scared and shadowed sharing

And how they’ve  become a

Blatant

Screaming

Blazing

Spoken word display of my art

Like “eexplaining my depression to my mom” A YouTube video.

How I’ve become 6 sleeping  pills

Or

4 shots of vodka

Or 3 shots of rum away from sleep

But still can’t

Fucking

Sleep

That’s what i think about at 1 in the morning

and again at 130

And again at 2

And 3

And 4

sunshine

Sitting in the sun

Smokin a fag

Listening to my

schizophrenic

Jahovie Neighbor talk to the lord

Wondering where the time went

Where I would idolize you

Want to write just like you

now I don’t know how

To write…

To be

I have no muse

I’m no longer a poet

More of a poet collector

A keeper of loose poems

And lost talent

Changed

different

And sunning my legs

While smoking a fag

ode

This one is for the late sleepers

For the ridiculous

For the over excited

The outcasts

The ambivalent

Who can be the life of everything

But only for a few hours

This one is for the lost ones

The ones just “trying really hard”

you’re not the only one

And you’re gunna be just fine

I’m back

something has been chasing me

something big

something small

but I’m a PHOENIX

rising from my ashes

becoming new

better

stronger

you see

the thing about the thing that’s been chasing me is that it only preys on the weak

like

an injured gazelle

but like a woman

once it gets you

it doesn’t want you

and like a man

once you get too strong

it lets you go